On Being Brave

I am not change adverse.  I change all the time, jobs, homes, cities, states.  Sometimes people view that as being brave.  Sometimes people view it as being weak.  It is all perspective.  We are who we are and those who try to define us really have no say in the matter.

I am who I was in sixth grade, just taller and I’d like to believe smarter.  I’m still the same person who would get sick on the first day of school, just with the ability to hide my nervousness better.  I’m still the same person who craves stability, just with the knowledge now that we have very little control in this life no matter how much we’d like to pretend we do.

I am almost always nervous or scared on some shadow level.  I am brave though because I am the only one who knows it.